Friendship vs Popularity on DA

You guy's don't have to read this. This is mostly just a vent, and normally I would post stuff like this on my status posts, but I wanna make the person I want to show this to can see it. Because I've blocked them, and I know that they've been checking up on my page every so often. 

You can't force someone to be your friend. No matter how much you beg them, plead with them, or try to make wish list journals with their usernames in them. (I.E= Tagging someone in a journal, so that they would see it). Friendship on here is not a popularity thing. If it seem's like it is then you're just looking at the surface of it. Just because a "popular" artist doesn't wanna be your friend on DA doesn't make them a bad person.

You and your "friends" act as if we're only willing to be friends with people who have 2k plus watchers. When you don't even see the other friends that we do have. We draw for each other not because we have some kind of obligation, we do it because we love drawing each other's OC's. Being able to head cannon, and laugh with each other. Our talking doesn't just stop on DA, it continues on into Discord, Skype, or what ever other medium we have to communicate with.

My newest friends, I've only known them in the past 6 months. Yeah, for thr first five years I only had one friend on DA. Because I was shy, when people come on too strong I get too nervous. And I'm still like that, when people approach me saying "omg I love your artwork lets be friends!" It's shocking for me, and a little bit nerve wracking, because I get comments like that not from just one person but from MULTIPLE people. Like why do you like my artwork? Why do you wanna be friends? Is there a specific reason besides my artwork? To an artist it feels a little suspect. Especially if they left it multiple times, on my artwork and my friends artwork. The same thing "Can I be your friend" and that's all you put. Especially when you leave it on a gift artwork!

My friend iLiekSkittlez that helped me grow and become more open and be less afraid. She didn't come up to me right away and ask to be friends. She did one of my bases, and won my contest with a freaking meme. A MEME. But she didn't come onto me strong, she didn't ask "do you want to be friends?" She got to know me better, talk to me, get to know me as a person and my characters. She left unique and thoughtful comments. And after a few weeks, she asked me IN MY NOTES (because this is the polite way!!!) if she could add me onto her skype? And you know what? I still freaked out, because I've only added two or three people onto my skype from DA. When I added her I tried to change my name on it because I didn't want her to know what my name was. (I changed it back of course) That's how nervous I get when I make friends online. But now, I have friends. A bit too many to keep up with now (I have a hard time talking to multiple people ;v; ), but I love them all. And they're all good people. We aren't just some kind of elitist squad of artist. We're a bunch of goobs throwing ideas at each other, laughing and having fun. 

I don't care how many watchers my friends have. I just love talking to them, they care about me and I care about them. Posting a vent journal about us, letting your "friends" talk shit about us behind our backs. ISN'T GOING TO HAVE US UNBLOCK YOU. Because you're just fishing for pity right now, you're throwing us under the bus so people can be on your side. What makes you think we'll want to be friends when you allow people to say that our art is "shitty" or that we're "pricks". Or that we're "souless, emotionless, and heartless bitches". There's a reason why I blocked you, and it was because I was starting to become very uncomfortable. Having someone constantly bash themselves, and degrade themselves so they can be friends with you is un-nerving.

It feels like you're trying to make us be pity friends with you, and let me tell you this. Pity friendships don't last. And to the people, who keep leaving comments on their journal, saying the reason why we don't wanna be friends with this person simply because of their artwork or watchers. You know nothing about this situation, you've only heard from their side. We don't want to be friends with not for her artwork or watcher count, but because of the way they acted towards me and my friends, and how they continue to act now by letting people just talk bad about us. Even though we didn't do anything wrong.
You seriously can't expect an artist to just splay out their whole entire life onto DA, we deserve to have some privacy too you know?

And to my watchers, the numbers you get on your profile show progression, it does reflect the amount of people who enjoy your artwork/content. Don't get me wrong when I say the amount of watchers don't count, because they do, because they are real people who are looking forward to seeing your artwork. Just don't let it be what defines you as a person.

I really do appreciate all of you guys. Seeing you guys comment, and being able to respond to them is very enjoyable. I wish I could respond to them all, but I do get overwhelmed, and I do find my self at times not being able to reply back. It's why I try to do requests every so often, and I only do them for my watchers, because you're the ones I wanna say thank you to. I don't do them to get new watchers, because I don't do request for people who watch me the right after I post my request journals... XD 

I'm sorry, but I had to get this off my chest. It annoys me  that people label my friends a bunch of "elitist" who only want to be friends with popular artist. You don't know who we're friends with on here, or who we talk to a lot. And you do realize we have friends off DA too right? Like, all of my friends who live where I live aren't artist at all. I'm the only person who draws in my group of friends irl.

Also a person left this comment on that person's vent journal about my friends and me.

"They have thousands of watchers and put themselves on a higher pedestal" "putt blocked me forever ago and he's a prick with shit art anyway"
MNNN THE SALT
YOU SALTY PERSON.
I CAN TASTE THE SALT.  

Just because a popular artist doesn't wanna be your friend, doesn't mean you can go and throw a guilt party or a temper tantrum.

Sorry for the long rant! I'll delete this journal later. No fancy skin for this one. TTvTT